So, this didn’t exactly work out the way I had planned. I was not only going to do the workout to completion, but I was going to rock at it and get the most amazing results ever….Not so much. It started with me getting sick. I wasn’t able to work out at all, I was throwing up (sorry for the TMI) and wasn’t able to get myself out of bed, let alone try to work out. Then, once I got out of the routine of doing the workouts everyday, I just kind of stopped, and didn’t really care; or miss it at all. Not only did I go back to all my old habits, but I ended up gaining even more weight, not all that much, but enough to get discouraged and upset. I know it sounds silly, but the more I wanted the weight to go away, the less I wanted to workout. So I have to just suck it up, and do it.
This time though, I’m going to do things a bit differently. Mainly, my attitude and my approach I’m going to try to change. First off, I need to just relax about the whole thing. I will do my best, always, but I can’t put a ridiculous amount of pressure on loosing a bunch of weight, or inches, or how I need to do this better and better each time. It was just way too much to deal with, and really, is a freakin recipe for disaster.
Second, I need to forget about trying to impress you. For all I know, there’s no one even reading this, its silly to try to make myself look better just because I think someone might read about it. And really, that just added to all the pressure I was feeling, I NEEDED to perform well because I was going to end up writing about it. It was silly.
Third, Ive got to be realistic about the results that I will get from working out. Yes, I should get in better shape, and yes, there have been many stories about crazy awesome results, but that doesn’t mean I need it to happen instantaneously. I need to just be happy with the fact that above all else, I am getting healthier. Thats all the result I should be looking at right now. If I work hard at that, the rest will come. And by the way, I hate my freakin scale, it was one of the reason I got so discouraged last time; I would work and work and work, and the numbers would not change! Arg! It was so frustrating.
Fourth, support. I know I had support last time, and I’m not saying I didnt. I’m actually saying that it helped alot. It was great to have others to do the workout with me and encourage me as well. I felt accountable to others too, they were invested in me and my progress, and I didnt want to let them down; though that was also contributing to the added pressure I was feeling. I defiantely want to keep having workout buddys, and I hope they will still be willing to go through this with me….again.
Fifth, I tried this last time, but I did it kind of stupidly, motivation. Not only for a better body and healthier self, but rewards in place for reaching a certain goal. Right now, I have one set up for the end of each of the three phases, (massage end of phase one, hair cut and color i’ve been wanting to get for the end of phase two, and rockin body photo shoot with friend at the end of phase 3) but I think I might also set up some personal goals that I can reward myself for. I havent decided exactly what they would be, but maybe something like, dinner date when I can do my first unassisted pull-up, or buy that dress I’ve been looking at for awhile when I can do 10 normal push-ups. I think that would help motivate in a way so that I’m not just “getting through it,” I’d be working towards something. The only thing I will for sure NOT do is set a reward for a certain amount of weight lost, maybe for inches, but not weight.
I really need to get this going, and I think I am in a better state mentally, to take on this challenge. I’m more realistic, and I know a bit more about what to expect as well. This is getting to crunch time for me, the wedding is just under five months away, and I really dont want to get married not feeling comfortable in my own skin. I think though, again, to be realistic, what my main goal for the wedding day will be to have nice toned arms. I think that looks so much better in pictures, and it is one thing that can make those few extra pounds feel like less. There, I have my wedding goal that has nothing to do with sizes to stress over, toned arms! Lets get to it!
