Wow, getting back into this thing was much better than I expected. I did prepare myself though, both mentally and day to day living wise. I went grocery shopping yesterday, and I got only healthy food, not a single “bad” thing. Even the carbs I did get were whole grain and enriched. I got a lot of snacks, try to keep from having big meals, lots of small snacks to curb it. I also splurged a bit and bought a 14 day cleanse. I figured that, not only have I seen them work well for others, but as long as I’m going to be serious about what I eat, I should get rid of all the toxins in my system and be able to get the full benefit of the healthy foods I’m eating. I also packed up all the sweets in the house and gave them away.
Mentally, I am much more realistic this time around. I know how the workouts go, and I know what I can expect from myself. I am more realistic about the results I can expect. I put way too much pressure on myself last time; to give 110% every workout, every rep, everyday, to loose lots of weight, to get back to the size I was in high school. This time, I’m going to try to concentrate on getting healthier, and getting physically fit. I also set up more motivation for along the way, and not just for when I complete phase. It kind of became less of a reward for a job well done, and more of a, I done with this sh**, I need something. So now I am setting goals for along the way! Yay!
So anyway, first day back on track! Today went really well. The diet was just fine, I had already started eating better for over a week now, so it wasn’t very hard. Its still a challenge to get as much protein that they recommend, but I’m not going to freak out about it like I did last time. I’m going to get as much protein as I can, but I’m just going to make sure I eat healthy all the time, that’s my main priority.
The workout went well. I took it a bit easy today. Don’t get me wrong now, I still worked, I just didn’t freak out about getting big numbers. I also took it a bit easier the first time through everything so that I could get a feel for everything again, then the second time, I did push myself more. My arms are already burning, but I’m not sick to my stomach from over exhaustion, so you know, that’s good. Ab Ripper is just as awful as I remembered. Again, I didn’t freak out about following them exactly, just to get a good workout, and get back into this thing without burning out in the first month. I think this is a good start for trying to achieve that, I just got to keep it going, stay motivated, and just work. We’ll see how it goes this time around, but I am really motivated, and at this point its pretty much make it or break it for me. I’ve bought the dress, and there is just over 4 months left till the wedding. Either I get it in gear and really commit, or not. There is really no more time left as a buffer for being wishy washy about getting in better shape.
